"It's not about you."
So begins a runaway best selling book on the Christian life and, for people who embrace the idea of being Christ's disciple, the statement is entirely true. A disciple orients her life around Christ. She daily denies herself, taking up her cross and following Christ Himself, wherever He leads. She learns to prefer Christ above self (Luke 9:23), above all other human relationships (Luke 14:26) and above material things (Luke 14:33).
God, on the other hand, orients Himself around us. While we, as disciples, make it all about Him, He, as our loving Father and our redeeming Savior, makes it all about us. He, being love, can only express Himself outwardly toward us.
So, on the one hand, it isn't about us and on the other hand, it's all about us!
I want to suggest that before and while you aim to live the Christ-ward life, you must allow God to make you the personal object of His affection. We err when we zealously hurry into the rigors of discipleship without marinating in the reality of "sonship" (not gender exclusive, but this word refers to our identity as sons and daughters of God). If you do not know your basic identity as a Christ-follower, which is not "disciple," but is actually "son,"or "daughter," you will never truly become a mature follower of Christ. You will be mired in doing, which is where most Christians are, and it is why they are so frustrated and exhausted.
If you will allow God the Spirit to show you your primary identity, you will see that the Christ-ward life is the inevitable result of learning to simply be the object of God's indescribable love.